I’m somebody who lives in my own head a lot – always thinking about what I should or ought to be doing to improve (or at least balance) my life and the lives of the people around me. I’m a fixer – if presented with a problem, I will noodle it for days until I can find some way to offer a solution or just fix it myself (which might also be construed as control issues). I’ve explored a LOT of different ideas that I thought might make my life better – energy healing, yoga, feng shui, wicca, meditation, self-hypnosis, law of attraction, accupuncture and books on everything from reinventing my life to learning to be happy with the life I have. I’m not discounting any of that, but I’m starting to understand that there is no magic pill – happiness and contentment are a choice and I don’t really need cures or healing to find it.
Among the many labels I might use to describe myself, I’m a mom (though my daughter is grown and well into her own life journey), a creative (though it feels a little pretentious to call myself an artist), a devout advocate of the written word (both reading it and writing it myself) and an explorer. I’m somebody who desperately wants to love my life and I work tirelessly to improve the quality of it, which sometimes means stepping outside my comfort zone, which often isn’t easy for somebody who lives inside her own head a lot. But I’m learning. I’m moving forward all the time (and only occasionally backward) and I’m happier with who I am today than I’ve possibly ever been in my life.
So, what is this blog about? I suppose, more than anything else, it’s a record of my life. We live in an amazing time where we can leave a written and photographic legacy for our families – a record of our highs, our lows and everything in between. I’ve searched outside myself for a long time now for answers to my problems, always suspecting some fundamental flaw in myself that prevented me from finding the right answer, and hiding perhaps the best pieces of myself out of fear that people will discover and point out the mess that I am. This blog is about tearing down that wall – learning to simply be who I am and love myself all the more for my beautiful, imperfect life.
My promise to myself, and anyone who might happen across my words here, is to always blog with honesty (the good stuff and the not-so-good); when I feel fear about posting something, to have the courage to move forward in the knowledge that I’m not alone and others may be experiencing something similar; and to always remember that my story has worth and that the telling of it can change the world.
thank you for visiting,
Kelley
dragonflyreflections@gmail.com
